damn lame!!!!

hen wu liao!!!!!!!!!!!
bu dong zi ji yao zuo me...
monday still gt exam..but wat i doin nw...
can i cheer up?
feel shit to myself...
damn shit...
wat kinda feeling....

still don noe wat result will get...
but...down la...
i try my best...n my best...
and last... lik done nt so well...
n my healthy loss..
kns d.

look lik my mood really no very good.
keep say @#%& word...
haha...

Monday..

Monday not holiday...
juz a simply day...
n i noe de next day gt exam lagi...
tatz y i nw still din sleep...

wait for tis day...
really hope it fast fast come...
coz i bei tahan le...

nw...i juz can repeatly see de same msg...again n again...
n keep waiting...
really stupid right~~~ haha....

shmily.......

don noe.

i don noe.
don noe y i so down.
don noe y i so blue.
don noe wat i worry 4.
don noe wat in ur mind.

everything.
no answer.

shit.

exam week

stay at Um...
facing exam nw...
pressure lahar...
hope can get gud result lo...
abo so pia aso don noe y...
hope 16th nov fast come la...

den...i think i gt time to do 'my' thing le...
希望能再度拥有...
所以我会等...
这次会乖了...
对不起...
为上次失去方向的事...
等待需耐性...
也许相信...坚信...
加油。。。考试加油！！

夜了。。。
该睡了。。。
晚安了哦。。。

Enc : shmily^^

a song again........

我还是你的
作词：姚若龙
作曲：黄韵玲
演唱：古巨基
★ 大赵 制作

你生日 的第一秒钟
用短讯 祝福你快乐
把手机 和胸口靠著 等你回头 说什麼
等到天 沉默的亮了
相爱太久 感觉也变朦胧
你离开 找甚麼 让自己再感动

我的呵护还是你的 坚持抱紧你的软弱
让你像个孩子娇纵 闹情绪发脾气然后泪流
我的温暖还是你的 回来像你没有走过
别怕伸手我不紧握 深爱是伤裂了还能 温柔

不能问 你心情起落
匿名看 你每篇博客
不想让 爱给你负荷 连关怀也远远的
我甘心　眼睛却红了
可能失去 也不能阻止我
把生命 的重心 摆在为你守侯

我的呵护还是你的 坚持抱紧你的软弱
让你像个孩子娇纵 闹情绪发脾气然后泪流
我的温暖还是你的 回来像你没有走过
别怕伸手我不紧握 深爱是伤裂了还能 温柔

我的呵护还是你的 坚持抱紧你的软弱
让你像个孩子娇纵 闹情绪发脾气然后泪流
我的温暖还是你的 回来像你没有走过
别怕伸手我不紧握 深爱是伤裂了还能 温柔

我爱你...a song for............

我爱你-S.H.E

从你眼睛 看着自己 最幸福的倒影
握在手心的默契 是明天的指引
无论是远近 什么世纪
在天堂拥抱 或荒野流离
我爱你 我敢去 未知的任何命运
我爱你 我愿意 准你来跋扈地决定 世界边境


偶尔我真的不懂你 又有谁真懂自己
往往两个人多亲密 是透过伤害来证明
像焦虑不安 我就任性
怕泄漏你怕 所以你生气
我爱你 让我听 你的疲惫和恐惧
我爱你 我想亲 你倔强到极限的心
我撑起所有爱围成风雨的禁地
当狂风豪雨 想让你喘口气
被划破的信心 需要时间痊愈
梦想牵着怀疑 未来看不清
就紧紧地拥抱去传递
能量和勇气 我爱你


我爱你 我想去 未知的 任何命运
我爱你 让我听 你的疲惫和恐惧
我爱你 我想亲 你倔强到极限的心
哪里都一起去 一起仰望星星
一起走出森林 一起品尝回忆
一起误会妒忌 一起雨过天晴
一起更懂自己 一起找到意义

让我爱你
我不要没有你 我不能没有你 绝不能没有你
我不要没有你 我不能没有你 绝不能没有你

for me...

那感觉真的很不好受...
以前的我们...
争得很要好.
关系不同了是事实..
但我还是当你是我最要好...最知心的朋友...
所以...有时你的拒绝...我都理解...
但...
真的不能改变了吗?
我们之间的好..
真的变不会跟以前一样了吗?
老师说...
真的很伤心...
脸上笑着又怎样...
我只想找个地方发泄...
所以才会很想唱歌...
哈哈哈哈哈...
真的好累...
我真的好累...
不想再继续了...
者关系对你来说算什么?
我算什么?
也许...
你也很无奈...
之前的因...
现在的果...
我懂...我也不懂...
不是谁的错...

真的不知自己想要的什么...
为何要那么做...
是后悔吗?
明明不是...
想重来吗...
拜托...
林仲慧!!!!!!!!!!!!!
你够了!!!
真的够了...
不累吗?
好玩吗?
那么固执是为何?
放开的事你...
现在你又想干吗...
别再继续了..
好累...
真的好累...
从中你要得到什么.
你动到最后你会什么也得不到的...
为何还要继续...
真的真的真的真的....很不懂...
睡死算了...
不想起身...
或者好累..

真的好想哭...
我没想像中的坚强...
我好像软弱一次...
很想放弃自己...
不想勉强自己...
我不是万能的...
也不是铁做的...
我并不聪明的...
林仲慧...
是会倒下的...
是会输得...
应该说...
他从没赢过...
永远的loser.

Sienzz...o nt sienzz... bz? o nt bz? TIMELESS...

hw to say lei...
nw...i can say is very bz de..
many thing need 2 do...
but...
y don wan do?
nt rush yet?
not tml wan hang up so slow slow a?
i always lik tat.
i noe.
no mood...
so sien aso coz lazy to do thing...

cant lik tat le.
really no time le.
u noe de.
timeless...
nice song..
haha..

don noe y...
miss my hometown la..
really...
all my best frenz at there...
in Um...
still searching la..
haha...

from tis post...
i really found out..
i really very sien..
haha...
damn..

wat i waiting 4??
y still waiting...
stupid..
go sleep la..

manchester win de match??
hope they will win..
add oil n always support MU...

really don noe wat i thinking abt...
sien sien n sien...
make my mood bad...

my mood...

最近心情没怎样好发。。。
心情会差的原因。。。我自己都不知道。。。
是考试压力？还是别的事情。。。
哈哈。。。
最近都有想把自己关在房里，不出去。。。
一是懒惰。。。
二是心情不好，除去还要面对一大堆人。。而如果你的脸又黑黑。。别人看了也不爽嘛。。。
想去走走的心情。。。但出去一个人静静，一个人慢慢地走。。。不急。。。让时间慢慢的过。。。这样的机会，在这里怎么可能会有。。。
是太累吗？
在哪方面？
学业？活动？都不是。。。
一些私事。。。吧。。。

嘴巴，最会就是说别人。。。
同一样的话，可以说给别人听。。。帮到别人，开解别人。。。
为什么对自己就那么不管用呢？

想说，我不是什么也没有，天天嘻嘻哈哈很开心。。。
嘻嘻哈哈不代表开心的。。。
只是不想把情绪放在脸上。。。

想说，天天说些很废的话，不代表我无聊神经或者很吵很乱。。。
只是想说的话不知怎么说。。。
想说的话对谁都说不出口。。。
放在心里会保险些吧。。。
哈哈。。。

想说，不是我想天天上网浪费时间又整天夜睡。。。
而是想找也空间给自己休息。。。
我不是铁做的。。。
我也不是很厉害。。。
也不是很坚强。。。
就只是很爱逞强。。。
也不想给任何人有什么麻烦。。。

累了就不想说。。。
想说。。。
振作点。。。加油。。

无论是谁都好。。。
要开心要幸福哦。。。

here my baba n our new member 4 stone family---my uncle..^^
drawing on face???? wakaka..

steamboat....syok !!!! (near sunway pyramid..)

aiyo...see my aunt bz eat nia...

wat is tat???

stone family....baba leh??

shop 4 cc talent nite...discuss~~~

we go amp sunway pyramid sing K!!!

happy birthday ya...xian mei...

juz a forward mail la...

爱一人

如果你不爱一个人,
请放手.
好让别人有机会爱她.
如果你爱的人放弃了你,
请放开自己,
好让自己有机会爱别人.
有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的.
人生中有许多种 .
但别让自己为一种伤害.
有些缘分是注定要失去的,
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,
爱一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她.
男人哭了是因为他真的爱了.
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了.
如果真诚是一种伤害,
我选择谎言;
如果谎言一种伤害,
我选择沉默;
如果沉默是一种伤害,
我选择离开.
如果失去是苦，
你怕不怕付出 ,
如果迷乱是苦，
你会不会选择结束,
如果追求是苦，
你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,
如果分离是苦，
你要向谁倾诉,
好多事情都是后来才看清楚,
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!!

start busy lo....

erm....um life start ady atmost 3 week le...
finally start busy le..
start gt tutor work...
start to need to present in front...
start to go interview fac activity...
start to hav meeting...
yaya...
start wan go out aso lazy le...(mayb only^o^)

i aso realize i need to start study le...
i join so many(gua) activity...
scare no enough tm to study...
scare cant catch up my study...

i aso noe myself de...
always sleep in de class..
haiz...cant control de...
i aso don noe y will so tired...
o mayb kuliah bored ba...

try my best la...
arrange de time properly...
use de time wisely...

REMEMBER...
STUDY SMART, NoT STUDY HARD...
my slogan...
hope really can do tiok tis...
haha...^^

add oil to myself la...
busy busy life..
smtm is better...
no need think too much...
do thing aso can more concentrate...
~~~~~

*忙碌之余,别忘了休息...
累坏了自己,对谁都没好处...
相反的,还会让身边人担心...
也是一样,要加油...
追随你的感觉...
追逐你的梦想...*

KL+UM LIFE~~~

stay at um...almost more than 1 week le...
after finish de haluansisiwa...o can call it orientation weee...
finally can sleep well... haha...

my 1st week...
hehe..
i already go mid valley le...
so many ppl leh tat day(weekend),
aiyo....walk nia aso will crash tiok ppl...
but...meet tiok many ppl la..
from ukm de upm de...
haha...

n...
tml will go pasar malam lo...
yeah yeah
n plan tis weekend go petaling street...
hope can lo...
i think is sure can de la,,
hoho...
i so playful lo...

erm...
talk abt study de thing...
same la...
always sleep in de class nia...
pai sei o my lecture...
um...quiet big la
erm...
but aso nt so big nia la
but everyday walk to my fac..
15min...
nw 4 me quiet tired de...
but i think after tat will xi guan de...
hehe...
i so playful wat...
hoho...
but...
tis all juz start only...
wat waiting 4 me..
is assignment...tutor....n so on...
i aos will join some activity la
abo very nite go mamak there chit chat aso bored.
lik tonite i go academic nite..
not bad la...
can see tiok more ppl..
n many kmph de ppl at there aso...
everything will b fine...
add oil...

n..
my other frenz aso...
add oil o...
B+...n gambatei....
miss u all!!!!!!!!!!!
PENANG FOOD< I MISS U ASo!!!!
^^

i guess i guess i guess guess guess....everything is s*** la~~

no ppl will noe n understand...
if juz only shut up de mouth...
hu noe wat u think...
juz de god noe...

after one's keep try to guess n guess...
n keep received de answer with 'u dont understand me...
after hundred, thousand time...
u finally giv tis stupid ppl a red card...
kick tis ppl out of de field.........
n punish tis stupid ppl ,
never close 2 u...
mayb tis ppl really stp...
but...
tis ppl ....is false?????

finally tis ppl juz can...
regret, regret n regret...
y guess wrong...
y dont understand u...
y juz can keep crying...

why...
coz I am nt de god...

UM...new life..

yaya...
i finally get wat i wan...
so lucky...

today.21th june...
is my last day work at winter warmers...
after tat can concentrate do my U thing le...
n can care care my hair le...
haha...
my mum ady bei dong le...
haha..
i will go do rebonding...
hope can find tiok gud + cheap de place lo

tml...
22th june...
many thing wan 2 do...
bz bz la...
bus de thing...
walau de...
so rush....
rush till i can long pia...
haha...
don noe anything ady wan to pay $$...
bohuat la...
hu wan upu work so slow...
n all de U open school so fast..
haha..
nvm la..
i can handle gok...

next week...
i will go a new place...
whole new place...
b a whole new ppl...
hehe...
hope will not bully by other...=.=

MoNey...
is de de bid problem...
i gt work
but all de salary ady 4 my hp + laptop...
haha...
so...
go KL aso muz control my money very well 4 de 1st year only la...
haha...

many frenz go KL...
some get their dream U+ courses...
some not (gambatei!!!) ...

hope all my frenz all de best...
in de future...

n my form6 frenz...
i am waiting 4 you all o...

(p/s: min jie...don play so much le.... wait u at KL la..^.^)

USM...

Anda telah mengesahkan untuk MENOLAK tawaran ke Universiti Sains Malaysia.

i wan go kl...
tat is why i reject usm...
mayb i say lik tat is funny 4 other
bt i gt my reason to go kl...
aso gt my reason to leave penang...

i hav my dream.
i will choose de road i will go.
hw other ppl think i don noe.
mayb say me stupid.
reject a top uni in m'sia...

but nw in my mind...
i juz hope n pray 4 myself...
UM o UPM will receive me...
i so hardworking 4 1 year...
juz wan go to KL UM...
my mum noe i reject usm aso very worry 4 me...
she aso help me pray...
thank n sorry mum...
i will success de...
hehe...
ADD OIL LA!!!

WOrking!!

tis few time too tired le...
actually plan to write something interest abt when i working time d...
but b4 tat...
really damn tired de.

hehe...
coz tomolo i 6pm baru start work...
so i nw bcome a 夜猫 again lo...

erm....
AbT my work...
still do at the same place la.
Winter warmers lo...
haha..
juz my partner change nia,
all work are still same...

my 1st day work..7/5
gt 1 couple some in...
erm...is malay lai de...
both very leng zai leng lui lo...
n aso gt a money look...
so i go serve lo...
hehe...
they sit more than 1 hour.
2 of them a...
so sweet...
when eat, juz 我喂你你喂我...
haha...why dint direct muaks leh...

@ 2nd day---8/5
erm....today i correct tiok 3 member card...
1 of them is 1 family lai...
they almost we wan close le baru come in...
haiz...make we all wan pengsan le...
we wan do cleaning le leh...
but they aunt look very like to talk wif me o...
i aso found out i can talk more wif customer....
haiz...the aunt say nowaday very dangerous go back too late n wan i drive car....
haha...but i din have car ma... n no money to fill petrol leh...
i very poor de...

#3rd day 9/5
today a....
erm... ntg happen la...
juz customer very many lo...
n back very late...
make me half die le...
but hor...
luckily when i go back home...
my loving mum help me 按摩...
haha....
thanks mum...

$4th day 10/5
today is mother day o...
all the mall very noisy...
and aso can listen tiok gt ppl sing wif mic
~世上只有妈妈好。。。~~~~~~~~
coz the mall gt wat wat mother day de competition...
many customer come dine in...
but member card difficult to sold out...
coz mostly de ppl juz wan celebrate wif mum only...(restoraunt more high class ma...)
so baru come in eat...
tat is y my leg aso wan patah le...
but ho...
i get de recipt which cost 100++ de...
i go counter change a flower o...
den go back i giv my mum o...
我好乖。。
huhu..........

~monday--11/5...
OFF　DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~tuesday--12/5...
damn...today i do FULL DAY...
from morning till closing....
my leg stand more than 12 hour...T.T
but when think tiok money money come...
haha...(tahan tahan...)
but my captain let me go back early...
hehe...thank lo...

wed day--13/5
yesterday ho...
erm...very sien la...
no customer de...
juz stand nia...
haiz...
n don noe y today...
difficult to smile...
but...
gt a table customer...
they is jit sin KRS de...
but nt same batch wif us de.
is tis year L6 de...(coz all hair shart short...hoho..)

thursday---14/5
yeah!!! today ha..
my 11th member card sold out lo...
mean tat my comision is increace le....
n ho...
b4 say de aunty come again...wif her son...
hoho...sure la..
talk wif me again...
tis time really talk many lo...
ask me wat school a...
n say her son don noe wat can phone me ask me bo...
yo yo...
but de most important de is...
she said ho...
she like to talk wif me o...
coz 我笑容很好看很自然。。。又有礼貌。。。
haha....syok tiok...
k la...
write many le...
time to stop le...
nw raining le..
hav a sweet dream o...

给你。。。

对不起。。。
想起以前的一切。。。
心好痛。。
这不是第一次了。。。
我做错的。。。
不是一两件。。。

离开，
也许对你对我都比较好。。。
没有结果的事。。。
就在这里结束吧。。。

对不起。。
真的对不起。。。
我快疯了。。

还有，谢谢你。。
shmily....

新部落落成！！！=o=

从彭亨回来才知道我的部落格被关了。。。
so没办法啦，就开新的咯 ！！！
哈哈。。。

回来后，我都快发霉了在家。。。
没事做。。打算以最快的速度早份工来做。。。
赚钱买电话，买手提电脑。。。
哈哈。。

想出去咯。。。
但又没钱花。。麻烦咯。。。
穷的日子真的好难过啊。。。
呜呜。。。

今天身体也不是很舒服。。。
肚子痛痛。。。唉。。。(昨天吃多了吧。。)
看来是命中注定要呆在家了。。。
任命吧。。。
bubu...........